I have been living with a disease for over a year now. My life is being overrun by Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome (POTS). I am being physically overpowered rather than mentally. I sleep literally all the time, I am never rested and the simple act of walking is enough to make me pass out. I feel sympathetic for those dealing with more mental type diseases like cancer, but the fact that they are able to live their life to their fullest abilities drives me crazy. I feel guilty even comparing one disease to another. But the fact that people with cancer sometimes decide to pass on life is enough to make me go crazy myself.

Why do people that are able to live life choose gangs and negative actions, when I am not able to walk into the next room and dreaming of changing the world for the better.

I so badly want to help people and animals to make the world a better place, it infuriates me to know that there are people who are just mentally sick people who are wasting there ability to live life. People that fill their lives with hatred and violence. People that don't care about the world or the people living in it.

I am having a hard time dealing with this currently.